Hungry for HIM

God is Huge...But He Chooses Us

2008-02-07T22:29:00.000-08:00

I find myself in this position where I have the opportunity to make a choice. Through struggles with my faith, church, family, and friends it was difficult to comprehend what God was saying through the clutter. But I finally sat down, and gave Him the chance to simply impress upon my heart, what His heart for me is. I cannot simply sit and and worship God, and read His Word. I need to engage. Jesus is not just my own personal savior, He is the King, and He has called all of us to rule with Him, to be kings and queens in His Kingdom. I must claim the inheritance which God has promised for me. The inheritance that awaits me in the Kingdom. I must act when He tells me to act. I will speak as He gives me utterance. I will fear God, not sin. Shame will not rule over my life. I will seek His purposes for my life. All other things will come in His time. What I need He shall give to me. Your grace is enough to sustain my small fragile life. And through You I will become the man You always knew that I was. I will be strong.

The Past is Done With

2008-01-19T21:22:00.000-08:00

I'm at work right now taking my break, and for some reason I have become ridiculously nostalgic. Here I find myself looking at my past, longing to have that same passion I once had, longing to have that feeling that I was in control of my life, longing to KNOW once again that I was going to be ok because I had Jesus and I knew what I was doing in my life. So here I am, sitting at work, realizing that I have no idea what is in store for my life. And I finally understand now that while I am here at this point in my life completely and utterly confused with this chaos that's raging in my heart, mind and soul, that this is where I need to be. I need to be here because I think I am finally going to be able to put my life in His hands. The choices aren't easy any more, and every decision has it's consequences, and there is no way that I can decide ANYTHING myself. I think it's about time to stop making my own decisions. I've been running my life for a while now, and I have to say that in the big picture things have been pretty good. But you know what? I'm tired of good, and I'm sick of alright. I want amazing, I want powerful. I want to live magnificently!! Just as God has intended for me to live. So here it goes...

Father God, I want to put my life into Your hands, I want You to be in control, guide my decisions, my thoughts, the choices that I must make for my life. That I would start to live righteously for You oh God, in alignment with the things You want for my life. I've seen my life in my hands, and the only time I do things right is when I am in Your Will. So God help me. That I may contend and war for You to reign in my life. I love You and I need You. Help me. Amen.

God Awaken the Dawn

2007-03-19T08:14:00.000-07:00

I don't think Mike Whang will ever truly understand the effect that his song has had on me. As the outro played and iTunes took the track back to the beginning. I was stunned. That was me, he was talking about me. It was some what comforting to know that someone else had felt the same way I had been feeling for a while. Then my stomach flipped. The embarassment, shame, pain, all flooded my emotions. What happened to the passion? The zeal that I had for God? Some where along the road it all broke down and it jus didn't matter any more, apathy had set in. I was sick of the eyes, I didn't want to live up to the standards. Even my family at this point was starting to criticize. When things got tough I wussed out, and I risked everything, I put my destiny on Satan's cutting board. It's not that I stopped loving Jesus, it's just that I was apathetic about advancing the Kingdom. In the midst of all of it, I still prayed, for my own heart and other people. But I just wasn't feeling it. It has always been hard for me to accept the love of God. But I just stopped feeling it all together. Even now after hearing testimonies and messages about knowing where you go when you die. I feel so numb to it. I look back on the things I wrote on this and I realize how far I went away from it. How much I stopped caring. My love for this school has faded away. I want to have a heart for these people. I want to love. But to love I have to first accept that I am loved. Wow. How do I do that? No need to prove my worth, God says I am worthy. He is the King of kings. What does that make His people? It means that His children, they are Kings and Queens. Wow. I didn't understand why I was writing this until now. If you read this, pray that you will feel the love of Jesus, and that you are able to accept how much He loves you.

ALLIES Church

2006-12-13T20:19:00.000-08:00

We have always stated that ALLIES is more than a club, it is a church. However, it is very hard to unite as a church with the little time in which we are given to meet at lunch on school days. This year, God has released a strong vision within the leadership. From this vision came the idea for "The 4th Night". It was expected to be a time of fellowship, worship, and a teaching that would help us to better understand our roles as members of this church called ALLIES. We have had two of these nights and both have been very successful in terms of attendence, however we would of course love to see even more people come out. The worship has been awesome, along with the fellowship, and there is no question that God is truly speaking to our hearts in powerful ways. It is how we decide to use what we learn in these messages however that will either change us for the better, or cause us to remain the same without growth in our lives. This is just the beginning of what God has planned for Arcadia. The Lord is searching for hearts that will surrender everything to Him, that will seek to do His will and be reflections of God's love. I pray that God will convict our hearts and change our lives. That He may shine through us, so that He may touch the world through our lives.

The Joy of His Spirit

2006-06-11T09:10:00.000-07:00

I was talking with a friend of mine, and he asked me this, "Have you ever been in the Spirit and the joy of the Lord is upon you, then as soon as you left that state of being in the Spirit you feel like crap?" I told him that I knew exactly what he meant. Because I had felt like that earlier that same day. I was thinking about this, and wondering why it happens sometimes? It isn't like that every time, only sometimes. So why? We all know that the presence of the Lord is true joy.

Gal 5:22-23
(22)"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,(23) gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law."

These things have been characterized as fruit of the Spirit. Which means we cannot produce these things, only the Holy Spirit can. The first three have to do with our attitude toward God. He brings us TRUE love, TRUE joy, TRUE peace. The second three have to do with our relationships toward one another. Longsuffering, kindness, goodness, they are all made manifest in us and through only by the Spirit. The last three concern principles that guide the conduct of a Christian life. Through the Spirit we are faithful, we are gentle, and we have self-control. We need to understand that none of these things come from our own efforts. They are virtues which are given to us by God. And the more we are in relationship with Him, and the more that we let God take first place in our lives, the more that these graces come forth in our lives, when we allow God to fully take control of our lives. So concerning joy, God brings us joy, being in His presence makes us happy. When we get to a place where we leave that place of His presence and our joy is gone. It's God reminding us that He is our happiness. It's a good place to be. Because then we know that our joy is true, and all we have to do is enter His presence and that joy will return. Thank you Lord that all things good come from You.

Arcadia Fast and Prayer Focus

2006-02-24T18:36:00.000-08:00

Fasting is going to be an essential part of our prayers for Arcadia High School. Without petition through fasting I do not believe we will see God move in the ways in which He desires to move on our campus. Throughout Scripture fasting is used as a sacrificial form of prayer warfare, which produces results available in no other way. It is this sacrifice that God is asking of His people who desire to see Him move on our campus.

This will be a fast similar to the one written about in Ezra chapter eight. Its purpose will be threefold.

Guidance – For God to show us the right path. That we would know His heart for Arcadia High and continuously walk in His will.

Assistance – For God to send His “reinforcements”. That He would guard our hearts from all evil and constantly fill us with the Holy Spirit so that we may be sustained by Him alone.

Substance – For God to guard our possessions and take back the land. That He would not allow the enemy to steal our worship and intercession and that He would trample sin under His foot and take Arcadia High back for His Kingdom.

The fast will be an all food fast, liquids only. God is calling for a people that will do whatever it takes to see His glory fall upon the Earth.

Let me know if you are able to join in this prayer and fast chain. You can leave a comment or talk to me whenever you get the chance. Please let me know as soon as possible, we want to get this going as soon as possible. God Bless.

The Waiting Room

2006-02-24T18:00:00.000-08:00

Waiting on the Lord. It is one of the most difficult things to do as a follower of Jesus Christ. Knowing that He is always there, hearing our prayers, even when we don't feel Him can be pretty difficult to accept sometimes. We know He is always there, that He's always listening, but when we don't get stirred, when God doesn't tap into our emotions, sometimes it hurts. Our God is an emotional God, but that doesn't mean that He only works through emotion. We tend to think that if God doesn't make us all excited or if we aren't crying on the ground then His presence isn't there or He isn't moving. We look at these times with the Lord, the times that we don't feel His presence, and we call them "dry times". Beloved, this is a lie. God is always moving in our hearts, do not allow yourself to believe He isn't just because you don't feel it. With our feeble minds and feeble hearts we cannot always comprehend the way God moves in us. We can't always feel Him moving, nevertheless, every time we seek Him with our hearts, He is moving. Dry times only refers to emotional dryness, in that we can't feel God moving with our emotions, but that doesn't mean that He's just leaving us hanging. He's still doing something, and He's telling us to press in harder, He's beckoning us deeper into His Chambers. God is jealous for our love. Do not think of waiting on Him as a chore. Enjoy it! Know that God tests those whom He loves, and that He only wants to do work in our hearts in these times of waiting. He wants us to wait in His presence.

What is it about Morning Prayer?

2006-02-01T19:43:00.000-08:00

By waking up in the morning and sacrificing our time, and our sleep, and praying to God, we are showing Him our dedication. God honors our sacrifices to Him. He takes delight in the willingness of His people to get up there in the cold morning and pray to Him. When revival comes, and the people turn to the Lord, it will be DIRECTLY LINKED WITH MORNING PRAYER. Morning prayer may very well be the most important time we spend praying for our campus. More so than any ALLIES event, worship gathering, or evangelizing. I urge everyone to come if it is in any way possible, God will honor your sacrifice, and He will hear our prayers. This is important, and it is God's Will to move through these gatherings.

Something About Your Love

2006-01-23T22:49:00.000-08:00

God, our Father, Lord of all the earth. There is something about Your love. Why is it that every time I turn my back, You tell me You love me? God, I love You. But it's just not enough. My heart is filthy, how can it love You? God help me learn how to love like you. Teach your children Your heart Father. That we would understand the depth of Your love, only then can we love as You do. God You truly are amazing. Let Your love overcome every other thing in our lives. I pray for Your love to stir in us, that it would touch our hearts, and that we would feel the love from You that we were made to feel. God we were made to feel Your love in its fulness. Let us feel the true power of the Love of the Father. Father, we love You. Though we fail time and again, and though our attempts to show our love are feeble, You are pleased with us. So teach us Your love for us, that we may love as You do.

The Waterers

2006-01-09T17:35:00.000-08:00

Arcadia High School has been set aside from the Kingdom of God. Many of us have spent countless hours praying for our school. Those who have been praying for the salvation of Arcadia High, have been faithful, and have been doing it out of the love of Christ. This past Saturday, Arcadia High students and alumni, along with students from other schools, people from all over Los Angeles, and some dedicated women of God who have been praying for our school and our city for over ten years now gathered to pray for the Spirit of God to come and invade our campus. We marched along the sidewalk around the school, praying and worshipping, pleading with the Lord to realease revival. An amazing time for sure, God is moving, it is evident, but this is the beginning. Now is where WE come in, OUR generation...

Romans 3:8
Now he who plants and he who waters are one, and each one will recieve his own reward according to his own labor.

Those people that have been praying for over ten years now are the planters. They have planted the seeds for revival to spring up in this land. WE, OUR GENERATION, RIGHT NOW, THE CHRISTIANS ON CAMPUS...we are the waterers. We are the ones who go to school here every day, and it's our job to pray, intercede, preach, do whatever the Lord tells you to do. God wants to move on our campus. The oppurtunity is here to see our campus saved, to see all of our campus turn to the Lord. We have to open our eyes in the Spirit. We have to believe in the miraculous, we have to be going to morning prayer if possible. We need to show people Jesus, through everything we do. We can't be afraid of what people say about us, or whether or not people will look at us differently. We just have to do what God calls us to do. Sure maybe we WILL get made fun of, but you will know the you were obedient to God, and that people saw the Lord because of that.

Romans 5:19
For as by one man's disobedience many were made sinners, so also by one Man's obedience many will be made righteous.

Paul refers to Adam's disobedience, he disobeyed God, and sin entered the world, making us all sinners. Paul then refers to Christ, He obeyed, and even though He knew He would have to die, He did it, out of love, and we were forgiven, and lifted out of sin. In the same way as Christ, we MUST obey the Lord. This verse scared me at first. But this is not a burden, it is a lifestyle. And it's one we have to live if we are going to see revival on our campus. Stay obedient to the Lord, in EVERYTHING YOU DO. Do this and we WILL see our campus saved. Believe it. It's time to water the seeds that have been sewn.

His Divinity and Our Depravity

2005-12-08T23:32:00.000-08:00

Im standing there in C hall at thursday worship. We are praying over our hearts preparing to worship the Lord. The low hum of the air-conditioning, the constant chatter of the people during lunch. The guitar begins to play. All other sound is drowned out. Our circle seems to be somewhat off center, not exactly perfectly alligned, not perfectly the way we wanted it. Like our love. God loves us so much, His love is huge, His love is perfect. Our love is deceitful, it is so small, so imperfect. It is so amazing how God continues to love us so much even tho are attempt to love Him back is pitiful. And yet in our pitiful attempt, God is pleased. He delights in our failed attempts to show our love for Him. So as the guitar begins to take over, every other sound is reduced to nothing. Until all that is heard, is a guitar, and praises being sung by 40-50 people. At that moment, I realized. We were bringing heaven to earth. There was a divine connection between us and God, and it was hitting us right there on our campus. God showed me that even tho our attempt to express our love for Him is so feeble, He loves it, and it makes Him so incredibly happy that we cant even understand. The fact that we weren't afraid, even for that brief a moment, to say, "Lord, I love You. Thank You, for everything." For in every song that we sing, in every dance we dance, in every clap we clap. That is wat we say. No matter how you worship God, it all translates back into that one thing. Father teach us to love like You.

Boldness

2005-12-04T12:22:00.000-08:00

God gave me a vision of myself as i was sitting at jon's house. something so simple yet so amazing. i saw myself walking to class from the north gym. from wat seemed to be an ALLIES wednesday meeting. as i walk past that big canopy, there is a group of guys. football players and some gangsterish guys. as i walk past them i stop. i am carrying a Bible. i walk right into the group, and i tell them that i want to tell them about Jesus. God then shows me again walking into another group of people who used to be people that i hung out with all the time. i sat with them and starting reading the Bible to them. i believe that this is part of God's plan for me. that He is going to give me this boldness, a boldness that comes from intimacy with Him, a boldness that comes from the Holy Spirit.

Friday Worship (Dec. 2, 2005)

2005-12-04T11:45:00.000-08:00

So im there on my knees just basking in the presence of God. mike and justin playing guitar and the people of God on their knees worshipping Jesus. all with one focus, all with one heart, all eyes on the Lord. my mind clears, and i see my heart. attatched to my heart are two chains with weights on them, each representing something. one is blue, and one is red, and my heart is both blue and red. then i see God reach out with both of His hands. slowly He grasps both chains. He breaks both of them off. then there was a third chain that attatches to my heart, this one is a dark red color. my heart quickly changes to this dark reddish brownish color. then the Lord takes this chain into His grasp, and pulls it off. my heart turns white, showing that it's clear of those things that were chaining me down. so as i was trying to understand this vision, i thought that the Lord was telling me that i needed to break of those chains from my heart. but then i realized that the Lord was saying that He was going to do it. He was breaking those things from my heart even at that moment. and that He was going to make me pure, so that i could walk into His purposes for my life.

Put on Christ

2005-12-04T11:40:00.000-08:00

Romans 13:11-14
Put on Christ
(11) And do this, knowing the time, that now it is high time to awake out of sleep; for now our salvation is nearer than when we first believed. (12) The night is far spent, the day is at hand. Therefore let us cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armor of light. (13) Let us walk properly, as in the day, not in revelry and drunkenness, not in lewdness and lust, not in strife and envy. (14) But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh, to fulfill its lusts.

I was going through some tough stuff recently when I opened up to Romans and read this very passage. I was so moved and touched by God's heart when I read this. I began to declare and proclaim this for my own life. That I would cast of the things of darkness, and "put on" our Lord Jesus. Declare this for your own life, that you would cast off the things of this world, and that Jesus would just take over.

The Altar

2005-12-04T11:33:00.000-08:00

This is something that the Lord revealed to me a a while back, when I was having problems with a friend of mine. I think this is a message we all need to hear, its something we tend to forget.

Deuteronomy 27:5-7
5 And there you shall build up an altar to the Lord your God, an altar of stones; you shall not use an iron tool on them.
6 You shall build with whole stones the altar of the Lord your God, and offer burnt offerings on it to the Lord your God.
7 You shall offer peace offerings, and shall eat there, rejoice before the Lord your God.

build an altar of whole stones without the use of an iron tool. the"whole" stones are made by God, they are exactly how he intended them to be, unbroken and untouched by man's "iron tools". in the same way God wants us to hav an altar of our own, not necessarily a physical place, but an altar in our hearts that is not tainted by the things of man. God wants us tolove Him and embrace Him the way He intended us to. full and complete devotion coming directly from our hearts. many times we come to the altar of theLord within our hearts and we have been broken and torn by something man hasdone to us. whether it be that a person has done wrong against us, that we hav done wrong against another person, some immoral thing we hav seen, some immoral thing we hav done, or something else along those lines . now,God says to bring these things before Him and confess, however many times we dwell upon these thoughts in our mind, even when we come before theLord. when these things begin to take center stage, our focus begins to shift away from God and onto watever that thing is that is bothering us. THIS IS BAD. firstly. we must confess these sins right from the beginning of our timeof meeting with the Lord, and then move on. if we go into time with theLord without first confessing, we are building Him a broken altar, an altarshaped by man, not shaped by the Spirit. and in this way we arehindering the Lord from fully sending us His blessings. secondly. we cannot spend that time with the Lord dwelling on that event, for in doing so, we allowshame and guilt to seep into our hearts. God does not want us to be ashamed or guilty, these thoughts are from the enemy. we have to allow theSpirit to guide us into wat we need to pray for, or in watever message God wants to send to us during that time. also, such things as pride and self-pity can be seen as these "iron tools". if we meet with the Lord and become prideful of an accomplishment we had that day, that is not of God, that is of ourflesh, and we are tainting God's altar in our hearts. we must glorify God forthe accomplishments of the day. in the same way we cannot do the opposite,we cannot come into time with the Lord and pity ourselves. saying, man mylife is bad. or, man i hated this today. or something else along those lines. The enemy is putting those thoughts into your mind to turn you against God. The enemy is trying to make us question wat God is doing. we must be reminded of God's Plan. we must surrender to Him and trust Him to lead us. so when going into our time with God, instead of having self pity, we need to surrender to His will and ask Him for wat our next steps should be.

so here's some what of an overview:
the altars to God in our hearts have to be shaped by the Spirit, not by our flesh. we cannot allow our sins to hold back the Lord's blessings which He wants to shower upon us. and that can only be done if the altar in our heart is of God, not of man. the altar must remain untainted by our flesh.

Under Construction

2005-12-01T20:22:00.000-08:00

This blog is currently under construction. I was moved to create this blog in order to reflect upon the Lord and what He has done for me. I hope to encourage those who read this in their walks with our Lord Jesus. Feel free to comment and ask questions if you have them. This blog will be strictly reserved for sharing what I have learned through the Lord and what He has shown me. Consequently, every post on this blog will be either a vision, a lesson learned, a word, a prayer, or just something to share...all of which will have everything to do with Jesus Christ and our REAL BIG God. I will begin posting soon, and I hope that what I share will be helpful to you. God Bless you.